July 12 2011....Two years since our fingers locked together as you held my hand before you went to bed....BUT as tomorrow never came for us...I still hold on to our last night together Nina...
"Ma can you sleep with me tonight? All night, not just until I fall asleep!"
Me "Of course I can. Look I even brought my pillow"
Nina: "Ma can you tell me a story about you and daddy?"
Me: "Not tonight."
Nina: "but why mommy, I want a story"
Me: " Tonight Nina I will speak to you about how my heart feels about you".....and we spoke and spoke... my last words to her: "nina you are my every breath and my every heart beat. Without you I cannot breath and without you my heart will never beat again"
Nina: "ma promise me you will never leave me!"
Me "No Nina YOU BETTER PROMISE we you will not leave me"
Nina "mommy I will ver leave you I promise"
I write this because although tomorrow never came...we both left each other knowing how much we loved one another and nothing was left unsaid. She may not physically be here BUT her voice in my head keeps me strong for her little sister. Despite the tragedy of what our family has gone through.....we must NEVER forget about our miracle who came back to us, CHRISTINA. She keeps me and my husband alive and moving. She keeps us going. She is our miracle as well as our niece Eleni. SO despite how hard today is WE must never forget that despite tomorrow never coming for my parents and Katerina.....it did for Christina and Eleni!!!
To my dear mom and dad: I love you with every fiber of my heart! I hold on to our last phone call three hours before your death and know how happy you were to be with your grandchildren in Greece. Your voice ma, Nina's voice and daddy's laughter will always be etched in my head. So tomorrow never came, but nothing was left unsaid.
SO I ask today that each of you stops right now and reads this. Because tomorrow may never come... but take a minute so you do not have any regrets or leave anything unsaid.
If Tomorrow Never Comes
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly,
And pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
And call you back for just one more
If I knew it would be th......e last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action,
And play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you know I do.
So just in case tomorrow never comes,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you,
And I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
. So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and
You'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today
(Unknown Author)
